2:46 a.m., Sunday into Monday

Pulling out my hair …

I need to finish this paperrrrr!!
And I need,
need,
need ...
a boyfriend,
a lover,
a steady, steady, steady.

A sure thing,

a right on time,
a song in the night.

But … not right now.

(When my head is clear, I'm gonna regret posting this.)

Back at the Lake

Hibiscus along Greenbelt Lake/July 9, 2011. (I took this pic!)

I came back to you,

and you were

just as I needed

you to be:

sun-kissed

and

shaded,

warm

and

cool.

In your flirty

morning mood,

your slow and

easy sway,

you welcomed

my return.

And with

coy pleasure,

surprised me.

I hadn't imagined

that you would be

more lush than ever.

God. Me. (No. 2)

God is the song 
that is in my head,

now out of my mouth,

riding the air,

soon to settle on someone’s heart --

just where it’s been pierced.

America The Beautiful -- Ray Charles

Indeed, God graces the whole Universe. Is there not beauty everywhere? I've seen the mountains of Salzburg and a rainbow across the Caribbean Sea. With that said, I post this song because RAY CHARLES ignores ideology and politics, and he stakes claim to his birthright: to love America and call it his home. The song really gets to me. But, it's Ray Charles! Growing up in our household, Ray ruled the hi-fi!

God. Me. (No. 1)

Sometimes, life won't let you sink. 
Even after you've stopped fighting the tears,
have stepped into the hole. 
laid down and curled up. 
God says no, and sends 
someone to pull you out. 

I don't have answers now, 
and I want answers. 
But I have God...